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I survived! Now, that means I don’t have to go back again, right? June 22, 2010

Posted by Erin F. Wasinger in Being a mama.

I made it through my first day back at work, for all of you gripping the edges of your laptops or mouse devices (see how I avoided pluralizing “mouse”? My wit isn’t back from maternity leave yet).

And I didn’t cry. I was like a real woman. I grabbed that work by the shoulders and shook it til it cried and I yelled “Dammit, let’s DO this!”

OK, that’s not how it was at all.

My e-mail inbox was so full it stopped receiving messages last month, so I just deleted some e-mail from late April and early May, and I tried to find my footing. I still feel like I got caught with one foot off the merry-go-round, but … I faked being all right well enough.

And I made it. Tomorrow and Thursday and Friday I’ll do it again.

And, thankfully — because if anything makes me cringe more severely than crying in public, I’ve not yet found it — I didn’t cry. I held my crap together and now I’m home and the kids are at the sitter’s until 4:30 or 5 p.m., so I can write for the other blog to makie some more moneys, and catch up and revel in the peace that is a house without children. No swing is swinging or playing some lullaby in the other room; no wooden train track is being dumped on the floor, no one one’s begging for a fruit snack or to be held or silently crouching by the couch to create a special surprise for me.

Ah. Silence.

Anyhow, I’m thinking 4:30. I miss my baby.



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