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The one in which I compare myself to a Weeble December 3, 2009

Posted by Erin F. Wasinger in Being a mama.

I read “Your Pregnancy, Week by Week” religiously when I was carrying Alice. On the same night every week I’d pull it out of the nightstand and flip through it, hoping it’d tell me something important or at least remind me that the balloon full of Jell-o that occupied my mid-section was temporary and yes I look OK in those Spandex-waisted jeans.

This time, I was on week 17, but my bookmark was wallowing back in week 14’s highlights. I skimmed the best parts, skipped the part about not eating fish, glanced at the renditions of what my baby looks like. I caught up mainly out of guilt, mixed with a little relief in watching three weeks pass without my knowing.

I again have a feeling I know the sex already, but I’m not prancing around the house with anticipation of the ultrasound (8:30 a.m. on Dec. 21 for those who’d like to jump in and make a prediction). I’ll just know when I know. I feel so much calmer, in a way.

Since I’m not sure if this is the last baby I’ll have (did you hear that? It was my mother, running to get her rosary. Hi, Mom!), I’m trying to just enjoy it. Trying.

Such as today, when I was amid one of those three-minute crises at work. My hands were pulling back my hair from my face to cool off, and then I was jabbed. Jabbed by a little foot or elbow. I stopped and held my breath, putting my hand over my belly. And he/she kicked back. My eyes burned in that don’t-get-all-emotional-that’s-disgusting way, and I laughed in relief because that was the first time it felt real.

Beginning to resemble a Weeble doesn’t make pregnancy seem real. Getting kicked does.



1. klhp - December 3, 2009

Don’t tell ANYONE, but this post made me want to have another baby. And that’s saying something.

2. erinfrances - December 4, 2009

DO IT! Join me!

3. Nicole - December 4, 2009

Aw! That’s fantastic! Yay Number Two! Go nuts, beat up your mom! She’ll LOVE it for the next 23 weeks! 🙂

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